The Beginning Of A New Life

The most amazing thing has happened …You know that love I was oh so afraid of? Well today my soul has completely been set free, today I have become the most luckiest woman in the world, cause today he got on one knee... The love I feel in my heart I never knew even existed .The struggles I go through everyday.. just don’t even matter anymore cause through it all ..I have him. Im ready for this new chapter! Who am I kidding I wish I was saying ‘’I Do’’ tomorrow… forever just isn’t long enough with you. I’m so happy for the first time I don’t even know what to do with myself… Oh baby is that light burning bright now. I give in, I surrender! You have all of me forever with no more fear or fighting ever again .You have me so wrapped up and in so deep I feel like I’m just drowning in your love and I never want to come back to the surface. I get so lost in those eyes every time ours meet.. Needless to say I have come to realize your what I have been waiting for my whole life.. you are my one and only final truth. This is the beginning of my happily ever after and I cant wait to tell it all.

October 1st

The divorce is finally over! I hope with this there can be peace in my soul again. It’s time for a new chapture for me and I hope a good one. So much is about to happen and honestly I’m afraid, I’m almost 18 and I don’t know where my life is going to take me. My love will be leaving soon to go to college which leaves me upset and trapped all over again, I don’t know what I will do without him by my side. A very important person to me died a few days ago… My aunt, I have never looked up to someone so much and the sad part is we don’t ever see or realize these things until the person we love so much is no longer there and we cant tell them those things. No matter what I do I’ll do with her on my mind cause I always wanted to make her proud. I have never seen someone so strong and loving in all my life no matter what she went through or how very sick she was she never once complained. I think she knew she wasn’t going to make it through this time… and yet she still kept a smile on her face. I have to wonder if she was afraid of dying or if she was ever really afraid of anything and what was going across her mind as she laid down to go to sleep not knowing that she wasn’t going to wake up. So who is your hero? If you know and there still around go tell that person how much they mean to you and how much you look up to them cause tomorrow isn’t promised and you never know what’s going to happen next so go take advantage.. I wish I still had the chance.